Haters gonna hate…

Okay so this might hurt a little…it’s something I’ve been churning over for a while now. So I’m just going to say it and I’m sure that I’m not the only one who feels it either… Self care, self love, body positivity and positivity about mental health as a disability is fraught with little IRL…

Finding our resolve…

A new year brings with it the anticipation for better things; that you will do better, that you’ll succeed further and generally that this year you’re life will meet all of your expectations and be the best year of your life…Talk about setting yourself up for a fall and a hard, flat on your face…

More than a diagnosis…

I’ve been assessed a lot this year – In fear that my mental health has been clouding my days and nights for more than the sun has shone over them. Taking ownership of my mental health journey over the years has helped me get through some pretty dark times. But you also need to know…

love louder: communicating with Bipolar

Lithium has left the building. As with it has most of my control over my anxiety and emotions. This is not unexpected but its impact has been more so than I dared to think of. Maybe it was sheer arrogance to think I could come off of such a strong weapon against mental war and…

so long sucker…

So after four years I'm coming to the end of a long term relationship… with Lithium. I'm two weeks into withdrawal and it's as much of a bitch as the medical professionals said it would be. Like an irked ex lover keying your car, this beast is scratching its way out of my body. As…

knocked for six…

I’ve been feeling fine. Yeah I know actually fine. Who knew such a word could actually contain sentiment but believe it, it can.  For the past month I’ve been busying myself with friends 30th birthday parties, trips to middle earth, baby showers and the like and it’s been lovely. Yet feeling fine has knocked me…

putting it together

seasons of april mental health blog this episode discusses how to deal with a period of wellness and her anxiety around it.

a space between time

There’s a space between time when all things go quiet except for the ticking of your heart and the relentless nausea bellowing from within Your mind fills itself with a radio silence of white noise and a fear louder than any alarm bell ringing between your ears There lies a loudness that consumes you before…

caging the monsters

I read a great post today, shared by a dear friend on Facebook, illustrating a number of mental illnesses with monsters (see them here), it’s so refreshing and comforting to see someone else looking from the same viewpoint and visualising mental health illness in the same way that I see it. I often describe my…

that’s life, that’s what all the people say…

For once, I am in the throws of a treatment plan and thus far it appears to be going well aside from the occassional throwdown of too much emotion at one time, it’s been a pretty steady period of adjustment. My anxiety for the most part is on check and I am on the whole…