overwhelmed…

What overwhelms me most in life is not the want of money or the elusive shit sticks notion of ‘happiness’, not even the ever expanding fear of terrorism overwhelms me. Nothing as much as the sheer number of other human beings knocking into each other, crossing paths, trying to figure it all out. I spend…

keeping up appearances.

Last month I urged you all to throw kindness around like confetti… I hope you’re still throwing it in abundance. My mind has been a flurry of activity recently with Bipolar signals flashing vibrantly and unavoidably… I’ve been working for months to keep them at a dim glow but this week that glow became a…

throw kindness around like confetti…

As I sit here blinking at the brightness of the screen with Archie the cat led across my stomach, I am unsure of what to write yet I have felt the longing to blog almost desperately for over a week. The mental health community recently lost a powerful voice, Amy Bleuel, to suicide and it…

a temporary crisis of confidence…

It’s been a crazy few weeks of redundancy (again!) and moving back down south to the sea. It’s been a time when friends and family have rallied, the cat has relished his new found freedom of a house with stairs and I have been playing the mindfulness card more than the current wave of cool…

5 ways to make a difference in your own life

January is over (insert fireworks and celebrations here).  I’m sure many of you warriors were fighting your good fight and let me just say – well done, I know this was a tough one for many of you (myself at times included) and I want you to know how much I have been rooting for…

defining your self worth

Many things can influence how we feel about ourselves. Generally speaking I think many people define their worth based on the opinions of others. I am guilty of such a charge and it really got me thinking recently – why? Now there’s the age old adage of us shaping an opinion of ourselves based on…

the swamp.

There’s something not quite right at the moment. A niggling feeling, something deep inside of my bones, making my teeth on edge and as I described to my therapist just yesterday – making me feel swampy (if you picture a swamp at this point I’m sure a whole host of feelings will come to mind,…

The most wonderful time of the year

It’s almost time to put on your stretchiest bottoms and eat more than you will all year. To sing loudly and proudly, argue with your family over a board game and most importantly spend time with your loved ones.  But as wonderful as the festive time is for many, it can be a challenging time…

a fragment of light. 

Fuck. Well 10 months, it was a good run. Back on 22nd September I posted about noticing that I was in the eye of the storm… well it was strong and no matter the preparation and the efforts to prevent it hitting land. It has, a 6/10 on the bipolar II scale. Last week I…

Two years of grief.

If you are to understand anything from this post, understand that grief is simply yet painfully: the loss of love.

knocked for six…

I’ve been feeling fine. Yeah I know actually fine. Who knew such a word could actually contain sentiment but believe it, it can.  For the past month I’ve been busying myself with friends 30th birthday parties, trips to middle earth, baby showers and the like and it’s been lovely. Yet feeling fine has knocked me…

the eye of the storm

It always amazes me how fast I can go from 60mph to 0mph. The signs are always there, telling me that a storm is coming… And I see them and I dance with them hoping for some sun instead but no the rain will always come. As much as I’ve spoken about what it’s like…